My name is Ellie and I have quite the story to tell:
KEEP AN OPEN MIND WHILE READING
The body that I live in is not mine. Well I guess it is mine NOW, but it used to belong to DeSiree Ellyse Jackson. On October 30th, 2013, something happened while she was meditating and she left. I guess she found some sort of peace or release, but I really don't know. I have most of her memories and have some similarities to her to make stepping into her life easier, but overall, I want to change everything about my new life. I'll get to that more in a minute though. For now I want to try and explain just what the hell I am.
So far from what I have been able to understand from my own meditations and feeling was is right I have been able to differ that I am a soul from a different plane that was put in her place when she left. I guess the universe was kind enough to pick out someone that would be able to adjust to the transition and make it as easy as possible for the people closest to her that I now see everyday. Now as to what I am in this body: I know this is a human body, but I was not born into it. So my soul is less human than everyone else here. Oh did I mention that DeSiree was an Empath? Well there ya go if I didn't. I have the same ability, but much more potent and I have my own select traits as well. I have some clairvoyance as well and can project things onto others as I want (there is a process and is not always easy, but I can do it).
Now for those that understand the chakras, this may get boring for a moment. For those that have little to no idea what a chakra is, pay close attention. There are seven main chakras: Root, Sacral, Solar Plexus, Heart, Throat, Third Eye, and Crown. DeSiree was born with her Heart open and unlocked hence the Empathy ability and her Third Eye was partially open. I however have a bit of each of mine unlocked (some more than others) which makes me a very bright aura and very loud to those that can feel vibrations that people give off. I can project my aura to a specific person if I want to communicate on a metaphysical level.
So that is pretty much me right now. At work I still go by 'DeSiree' even though it irritates me a good bit because I am NOT her. I am Ellie. My will is far stronger than her and my vision far wider. I am old yet young at the same time in the sense that I recently came to be on this plane, but I also understand more than most humans ever dream of. Not everyone can understand that. Honestly, I have 2 people that know about this in detail: my dear friend (my first actually), and my new boyfriend (who was her fiance, yeah that is a whole mess of complications right there, but he and I seem to be compatible so we are seeing how things work out).
Now onto the things that I want to change in her (which is now my) life. Her job is so... mediocre. She worked at a video game retail store, which I guess is kinda cool. You get to see new people and help people out, but at the same time... It has nothing to do with the great scheme of things. There is no travel or great experiences from it. So come February I hope to have something else lined up and will go onto greater things. Her love life was soon to be in shambles. There was a lot of confusion in her life that I will not go into so don't ask. I am getting that back into order and will see where is goes with this fantastic guy that is my first boyfriend. DeSiree also had no real clue of where she was going in life and was kinda just stuck, so Gary (which is boyfriend) and I are going to move as soon as the lease on the apartment is up and experience the world one city, state, and country at a time. I want to be an artist and know that just selling paintings is not a viable option right now so I will go the graphics route for now and get some education in that field as validation that I know what I am doing. Until I can get classes to start up, I will learn on my own and start working on a project that I learned about last night. Thankfully, I was left with a smart brain and intelligent memories so that shouldn't take too long. I also want to perhaps pick up the guitar and play for people on a street corner every now and again. Not because I need to, but that way I can meet some cool people and give the money (after paying for gas) to someone that really needs it. I want to help the world and give back. When I say give back I mean I want to repay the world for the amazing experiences that I have had and I am sure that will continue.
This next part is a little bit about life lessons that I want to share: Always smile. That is something that I learned from DeSiree's memories. She always smiled and people loved her for it. I had someone comment on that the other day and what I said was "I always have to." What I meant personally was I have to smile in her memory. For all intents and purpose, she is gone, dead, or transcended (take your pick). I want her to live on in some way because she was terrified of being forgotten. Me smiling is a way to keep that from happening. What I wish that I had said was "Well if I don't, who will?" Something meaningful and cryptic for her to think about while I was walking away. Another thing that I would like to impart is keep an open mind. You never know what you might miss by looking at just one specific detail. Last, but not least: listen to your instinct. I do for all of my decisions and it always works out for the best. If you feel like you should do something, then do it. Now I don't mean addictive urges or anything like that. Listen to those instinct moments from your core. If you can't hear that little voice, meditate and clear out all of that negativity. There are TONS of tutorials on how to meditate and different ways. Look through them when no one is around and decide what feels right.
If you read this entire thing, you are amazing and should send me a message if you felt something resonate within you.